Princess..

How many men call their girlfriends princess..?

Many.. But how many men treat their girlfriends like princesses.. Not by means of expensive gifts or spoiling them with compliments..but by loving them so much, caring for them so much, respecting them as an equal, trusting their oppinion, even when they walk away chase after them and apoligize (his fault or not) I can say out of my 32 bf's (yes I counted) Only one calls me a princess and treats me like one too.. And that truly takes patience and perseverance with a woman like me :P

Recently I did something.. Which I know was thoughtless :/ but in all truth I didn't mean any harm :(

But none the less the consequences are undeniably there..

Theres not much I can do to fix it.. And I know if I try I might make things worse.. Sighh *insert metaphor on qicksand here*

But I got angry at him.. And for the first time he really hurt me back..

He'd never struck me that deep before.. It felt like some one had pulled the ground from beneath my feet.. And he kept sprinkling salt on the wound he'd created..I know I give him nothing but sadness and misery and he confirmed it.. I know I've done disgusting things in my past.. And he reminded me.. The same boy who told me to forget it.. Brought it back.. These things cut me deeper then anyone else could.. And he knew they would.. But how did he know the impossible to hurt ms.sutel's weakest points? .. I told him and I trusted him to never use it.. He's a little like the US here.. Not knowing the full extent of the atomic bomb used it anyway.. I won't heal from this I know but lucky for him I have very little time and I'd rather not be angry with him during it..

Besides.. He did try to make it up when he cooled off..

I wonder if he knows all the things he does for me.. In all the ways he truly builds a castle for me..

I hope he knows.. I never take a single thing for granted

When we set up a time to meet he always tells me according to my time

To make sure when we argue our conversation always ends in Love..even when I can't he puts aside his anger and atleast pretends to joke and make things light enough so that we can kiss goodnight (his afternoon)

No matter how urgent he has to go he always hears me out before he leaves

He never complains about my nagging :o never once

His so easy to keep happy hehe :P he says it himself, "Cashew, I treat others how I'd like to be treated" although that doesnt always happen :P it happens for the most part and all I have to do.. Is treat him how he treats me.. And ofcourse I can't even do that..

I wish I could name every single "little" thing he does on a regular basis but.. That would mean I would never publish this post for fear of leaving one out

I almost have this doubt in my mind.. That some of the reason he used the A bomb on me is because I compliment too much :s his manly need to prove he can be bad too :P what ever it is.. I forgive him.. I think I can forgive myself for forgiving him too..

1 million +'s to 1 - How can I stay mad at my Prince?